Come to the edge. We might fall. Come to the edge. It's too high! COME TO THE EDGE! And they came, And he pushed, And they flew. ~Christopher Logue
I have kept a personal diary since about 2009. In the early days I emptied the thoughts and worries of my busy, exhausted mind onto a page. It was a coping mechanism to pull me from one support group or Psychotherapy session to the next. The action of writing my words and thoughts in my own handwriting had the effects of meditation, bringing healing to my restless and troubled mind, body and soul. It was my sanctuary, a safe private space where I could explore my own thoughts and feelings. It continues to be the space where I have an honest conversation with and get to know my true Self, reclaiming my truth one line at a time.
I have been fortunate to have experienced healing from a wide range of healing modalities over the years. One of these was the Tarot. A few years ago I bought my first Tarot deck for my own personal use. I hoped to connect better with my intuition, to make choices that were for my greater good with more confidence. Like Astrology, to which the Tarot is inextricably linked, the Tarot is a wonderful coaching tool. It allows for self-expression, expanding of awareness and allowed a deeper connection to my Self, to Spirit. As the practice of writing does for me, the Tarot shines a light toward my unconscious mind through rich and beautiful images.
To have somewhere to start from, I did learn some basic meanings and symbolism from books and online resources. As a slow and visual learner, I had difficulty retaining all the information and meanings by learning them off. Fortunate for me, the resources I used encouraged the use of intuition as a creative way to learn how to discern meaning from the cards. I created a simple practice for myself. I pulled one or two cards and noted what immediately stood out from the images. Applying the basic meanings I had learned, I observed how themes reflected in (at times difficult) life situations that played out.
In the later months of 2018 I heeded a call to create a journal outside of my personal diary space to explore the energy of the Fool card on its own. I printed a large image of the Fool on the inside cover of and equally colourful A4 Foolscap notebook. I was at another time of transition in my life. Amongst other things, I had just turned 40. I was training and working toward being a full-time Massage Therapist. My eldest daughter, Lauren, now an adult was preparing to leave home to travel. Deeply curious by nature, I took up the challenge to wander into the unknown with the Fool. It felt like a preparation of sorts for this new life stage I faced. I thought I would be finished in a few paragraphs but over time I filled the notebook.
Some basic meanings of the Fool card include: new beginnings, freedom, childlike wonder and taking risks. As I discovered the Fool asks infinitely more. Some examples of questions I explored for myself were as follows:
- What is my relationship to the Unknown and coping with uncertainty and fear?
- What is my relationship with the Present Moment?
- What is my relationship with Trust?
- What is my Truth?
- Am I living in alignment with it?
There is lots of information available on the deep symbolism of Tarot and the Fool available. It is beyond the scope of this offering or indeed my knowledge of the Tarot. In short, the Tarot is all about the Fool. The Fool card is denoted with O, which is the number of unlimited potential. The card does not have a specific place in the sequence of the cards. The other 77 cards are reflective of the Fools journey through life. The Fool is the beginning and the end, the Alpha and Omega. Everything on the card has meaning. The Fool’s clothing and open heart, the little dog, the white rose, the snow-capped mountains that lie ahead, the sun in the sky…
Along the way one suggested meaning that I liked best was that the Fool represents our ‘too much’. Unfortunately, I cannot remember where I read it to give due credit. The author suggested reflecting on all the times we heard we were ‘too much’ of something. The Fool energy represents all of that ‘too much.’ Too loud, too quiet, too shy, too talkative, too argumentative, too forceful, to passive, too timid, too careless, too careful, too rebellious, too sensitive, too curious, too modest, too open, too closed, too trusting, too crazy, too moody, too emotional, too dramatic, too bossy, too stubborn, too soft, too fussy, too weird… Ah, you are TOO MUCH!
This exercise is less about who said it or why they did and more about our response to it. Considering the Fool in this way, I identified where I still had work to do. Was I still lugging about outdated and untrue beliefs? Do I continue to allow them to dampen the colours that make me who I am? Particularly in my early life, I was in the habit of either hiding that aspect of myself to conform or fit in, or amplifying them in defiance. Both reactions were a waste of my time an energy and pulled me away from my truth.
Whether you have no interest at all in Tarot or are a Seeker of the truth and a naturally inquisitive like me, I encourage you to reflect on your ‘too much’. What colourful superpowers might you have hidden away? Reclaiming them and sharing them might help make the World a better place to be for us all. To be continued…
With much Aloha until Next time. Caroline 🌈
- Your Tarot your Way, Learn to Read with any deck- Barbara Moore